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Monday, March 31, 2014

Mini Update

Maybe because too many things kept going wrong, or maybe because it was my birthday week, but I found myself at a point where I just wanted to be nice to myself for a change.

I'm a martyr. Well, not really. But I tend to suffer in silence for a long time before I'll complain. Over the weekend, I met my Waterloo. 

Once Greg got here things improved greatly, and that's when I decided to stop pushing myself and treat myself kindly.

The best thing that happened was that he fixed my water lines. No more hauling water to the animals. Woo Hoo!!

It's funny how the simplest of pleasures can mollify me. I want to turn over a new leaf and spend a little time (and money) on myself for a change. Nothing drastic. Just a few new clothes and maybe a day at the hair salon once in a while.

I have a bad habit of doing without and I'm starting to scare myself in the mornings.

A little mini update of the last three days...

• We left the back door ajar allowing Tank and Nana to make their escape. Tank did his old man wandering, but Nana came to find us (we were in the back forty) and tattled on Tank. We nearly had heart attacks when we realized the door had been left open. Fortunately Tank didn't go far, and Maggie and Iko were unaware of the open door. Crisis averted!

• The baby goats are doing so much so much better. They are jumping and running around like normal little goatlings. The blind goat can see now! They are exactly two and half weeks old today.

• Both my heaters in the house went out at the same time. Greg hasn't figured out why yet. It's not a big deal since we haven't needed the heaters in a while. I only noticed it when I flipped the switch on accidentally and noticed it didn't come on.

• We bought custom blinds for the last remaining windows in the house. These things are expensive but I couldn't put it off any longer. Greg is happy. His den will finally have proper window coverings.

• Half my garden is in.

• My birthday was nice. Despite the lightning storms and losing power, it was good to have Greg home. Tank was so happy to see him. We stayed home and I made dinner. Greg brought me a cake from my favorite bakery in SE Texas.

Do you ever reach a point where enough was enough and you make a conscious effort to change it? If you could change anything about your circumstances right now, what would it be? I'll see if I can send a little extra Karma your way.


34 comments:

Mike Keyton said...

Hope you have some good cossetting days, Maria. I'm seeing you in a Disney scenario with blue birds and chipmunks and goats and Tank and Iko fluttering around you and filling your house with song :)

Michelle H. said...

Happy Birthday! Yes, I was the same for a very long time, letting people have their way even though it caused me grief to be without. I came to the point where I don't give any concessions in life anymore. Sometimes, you have to matter first.

Maria Zannini said...

Mike: Well the weather is cooperating with Disney. It's been gorgeous here.

Maria Zannini said...

Michelle: I need to put your comment on a sign above my computer monitor. :)

Part of the reason I've been so lax with myself is because I want those around me to be comfortable, but it's me who usually has to sacrifice to make their lives easier.

Angela Brown said...

So glad Greg's presence at home has been part of the improvement of things around the homestead.
It's good that you did not allow wonky weather outside to dictate having a wonderful day with your loves inside the house.
Good girl, Nana for making sure there was no repeat of the crisis which shall not be named.
And yay for the "kids" doing well :-)

By they way, I sometimes wonder if sacrificing ourselves is the normal course for most women. I do this myself, let things go for me so that I can see things go smoothly for others. I'm making slow progress in doing for me, but it's not often that I put me first.

Maria Zannini said...

It's definitely the qualities of a mom. I have no children but I guess I kind of baby those around me.

Re: ...crisis which shall not be named.

LOL! Yes! Let's not name that. We had fleeting glimpses of deja vous that day.

Stacy McKitrick said...

Glad you were able to have some fund on your birthday. And I'm still drooling over that cake!!

As for changing circumstances? Hmmm... I guess the only thing I wish is that I WANTED to exercise more. Then maybe I would. I really am out of shape. Well, I HAVE a shape, it's just not a good one! Haha!

Maria Zannini said...

Stacy: As my husband likes to tell me, round is a shape.

I often kick myself about exercise. When I was young and didn't need to exercise, we went to the gym all the time. Now that I need it, there are a hundred other things I'd rather do.

Barbara Ann Wright said...

When I've had it up to here with our animals, I hide in the bedroom for a little while. That's the nice thing I occasionally do for myself.

Jackie Burris said...

Maria it has been awhile but yes have reached "Waterloo" of my own, these days the only thing wish I could change would be wish had a room in the house to call my own because with the two cats and the other two humans it becomes a bit of an issue at times when I just want some "alone time".

No sure you can help with that one but sure glad Greg made your birthday special and all is working out with the critters as it should, thank goodness for tattle tale Nana too as your stress level did not need to reach new heights for sure.

Shirley Wells said...

Glad you had fun on your birthday, and good for you for treating yourself. Happy pandering. :)

I'm with you on the exercise thing. When I was young, slim and fit (back when Noah was building the Ark), I loved going to the gym. Now that I need to go, I can't bear the thought of it. I'd rather have cake. :)

Anna Soliveres said...

Hah! It all sounds like such a fun adventure with all the animals. These days I ache for a slower life in the countryside. But I don't know how much quieter (or restful for that matter) it would be with a house full of kids and pets! :)

Jennifer Shirk said...

Glad you had a nice birthday!

Yes, window treatments are the biggest scam around, aren't they? LOL The costs are amazing.

Maria Zannini said...

Barbara: Nana is so needy. She hates to see a door closed on her. I have never taken a shower alone. :)

Maria Zannini said...

Jackie: We were very lucky Nana came to find us.

It's a shame you can't carve out a room just for yourself. Everyone needs a little privacy with their thoughts.

Maria Zannini said...

Shirley: LOL. I think God must have a mean sense of humor. When they say youth is wasted on the young, I had no idea how true that was.

Maria Zannini said...

Anna: Trust me, there is no such thing as a slower life in the country. If anything I'm busier now than when I worked outside.

Maria Zannini said...

Jennifer: Window treatments are some of the priciest things around. The only nice thing is they do all the work.

Jenny Schwartz said...

Maria, I'm so glad you're going to allow some spoil yourself time into your life.

Sometimes I think our guardian angels should carry a sledgehammer around with them. Then, when we drape ourselves in martyr shrouds, they can smack that silliness right out of us -- and that comment is directed at me, not you :)

Happy to hear all the kids are doing great.

Darke Conteur said...

I don't think I'd change anything. I'm a firm believer that things happen for a reason. I need to be in this place at this time to be learning something. Just damned if I know what.

Glad to hear your birthday went well. Husband asked if I was excited for mine. Hell no. They're starting to get a little boring.

Diane Carlisle said...

We lost power too, but I don't think it was related. :D

Maria Zannini said...

Jenny: I'm pretty sure I've retired several guardian angels by now. :D

I don't know why I've let this self-abuse go on for so long. Maybe living alone so much of the time has drained me.

Maria Zannini said...

Darke: I know what you mean. I'm not sure things happen for a reason, but I know to accept them as gifts and learning tools. --I just don't always like the lessons they teach. ;-)

Maria Zannini said...

Diane: That would be one far-reaching storm! It was so annoying to keep losing power. We would've gone out but we didn't think it would be safe to travel either.

Rebekah Loper said...

Yay, glad things are looking up!

I have a tendency to make myself a 'martyr' as well, so we'll both work on pampering ourselves, ok?

Maria Zannini said...

Rebekah: Sounds like we should start a support group. I'll bet money we're not the only ones with this problem. :)

Cate Masters said...

So glad you took some time for yourself. When you spend so much time caring for others, you exhaust yourself.
That cake looked amazing. Hope it tasted even better!

marlenedotterer said...

I'm so glad you got some down time! As silly as it sounds, sometimes you have to schedule time for yourself. Just put it in the calendar as a repeating appointment... once a week, once a month, or whatever works. It's easy to blow it off when it comes around, but having that appointment makes it more possible.

Maria Zannini said...

Cate: That cake was absolutely sinful. Worth every bite. :)

Maria Zannini said...

Marlene: I'm really going to try and schedule time for myself. It's gotten ridiculous how hard I drive myself.

raelynbarclay said...

I just need things to stop breaking, LOL. Money earmarked for a move keep getting diverted to other things...like a new car, grrr.

Glad Greg is home to help you. You definitely deserve the break, and the pampering.

Your birthday celebration sounds perfect!

Marian Perera said...

I'm glad to hear the blind baby goat is no longer blind! And that you had a lovely birthday.

Maria Zannini said...

Raelyn:
Re: I just need things to stop breaking,

I hear that! They seem to occur in groups. Sometimes I don't know which to fix first.

Maria Zannini said...

Marian: I was shocked that he regained his sight. And very relieved.