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Monday, September 28, 2015

Out of Phase With the World

It's been a weird few days. I feel like I'm not quite in sync with the rest of the world and I can't put my finger on why. I have this nagging feeling that I forgot something important or left something undone.

First, Facebook blocked both me and Greg from logging in. It was acting funny Friday, constantly jerking me out of my timeline and resetting itself. By Saturday, we couldn't connect at all.

Then it was the goats. Friday, they picked at their food. Our goats never pick. They eat every pellet as if it were their last and if we walk by their pen, they bleat at us as if they're starving. For three days, they've been silent. Other than not eating, they seem fine, but it was unnerving.

Saturday, I opened a fresh bag and they ate most of what I gave them, but still left some. They were happy to eat leaves and sunflower seeds. Maybe they were bored with their feed, but all of a sudden like that? I don't like not knowing why my animals act strange.

To complicate things, the person I normally buy hay from called and told me she wouldn't have any more this year. Now I have to hustle and find another supplier. The goats can't go without hay.

Friday, I borrowed Greg's car and I was stranded in town, missing my yoga class. It turned out to be nothing (the shifter wasn't exactly on Park so it acted like the battery was dead). Had I reached Greg in time, he could've told me his trick for getting it to work again, but alas, we missed each other. By the time he called me back, my schedule was shot.

The chickens are eating their eggs again. They're in molt so I've been giving them more protein, but it hasn't stopped them from eating their eggs. The goats won't eat, and the chickens eat too much. My homestead is topsy turvy.

Even my appetite is strange. Like the goats, nothing appeals to me. I'll eat a little and push the rest away. Not that that's a bad thing for me! Ha! Missing a few meals wouldn't hurt me in the least.

We were invited to a party over the weekend. I really didn't want to go. I felt unwell and a little tired. I even took a nap which is unheard of for me. I whined about going but Greg guilted me into doing the right thing. I put on a brave face and powered through it.

All in all an eventful weekend but nothing that felt right. I can't remember ever feeling so out of phase with everything around me. It made me feel anxious over nothing in particular.

Have you ever felt out of sync with the rest of the world? Was it just as disconcerting for you?

 


Did you get a chance to see the Super Moon eclipse on Sunday? It was pretty neat. Who knows if I'll be around for the next one in 2033, so I wanted to be sure to see this one.

Our skies were a little cloudy but it was clear in the area around the moon. It really was red too. It made me think how our ancient ancestors must've felt to see the moon 'die'.


22 comments:

Madeline Mora-Summonte said...

I've been feeling out of sorts myself. Not sure why. Hope you're feeling better now and back on track. :)

Maria Zannini said...

Madeline: It is disturbing, isn't it? It's like dancing outside of the beat.

LD Masterson said...

Maybe it has to do with that moon. I've been a little off myself. No matter what I'm doing, I have the vague feeling I should be doing something else.

betty said...

We did see the blood moon; pretty impressive and I too wondered how people of long ago reacted to such a sight. Sorry to hear you have been out of sorts. I too wonder if that and the animals' behavior had something to do with the moon. I know emergency rooms get pretty busy during full moon times. Can never really explain it but about 6 weeks ago the birds on our feeders were acting more aggressive, more in a tizzy about things with each other, etc. Someone in a Facebook group for my local city mentioned how their animals were acting weirder than normal and everyone started posting about occurrences with their animals. It lasted just a few days then everything returned to normal. No one could pinpoint exactly what caused it. I guess another mystery we'll never know; kind of like what you and your household are experiencing.

betty

Stacy McKitrick said...

My hubby was smart. He set his calendar alarm to remind us to go outside and see the blood moon. Thank goodness it was clear out. It had gotten cloudy and I worried I wouldn't be able to see it. Looked cool!

Rebekah Loper said...


Facebook was funky for me off and on all of last week. I think part of it was the sketchy internet connection I was on in the middle-of-nowhere-Oklahoma, but everyone ELSE was having enough problems, too, that it was definitely something on Facebook's end as well.

Maybe you can blame all the homestead strangeness on the eclipse? ;)

Angela Brown said...

I say blame the eclispse. Maybe things will get back to normal quickly now that it has passed.

Susan Gourley/Kelley said...

Perhaps it was that special moon and the eclipse that made everything seem off-kilter. Something supernatural! We couldn't see it because of the clouds.

Karen Jones Gowen said...

I will often have these phases and the fact you mention it with the moon makes me wonder if it is a lunar thing! Usually I sort through the messes and find my way clear again but you're right, it's a very unsettling feeling to be so out of sync for a period of time and not know why.

Sarah Ahiers said...

Bummer on feeling weird. I've been feeling off, but I'm so busy right now that I can't really justify going to the doctor unless things get worse. Sigh.
But yes! The moon was amazing!

Barbara Ann Wright said...

I blame the super moon for your feeling out of sorts. You'll probably get a lot of that in the comments. Once the world is back to normal, you will be, too.

Maria Zannini said...

Linda: That's me. It feels important but I know for a fact that I've checked off everything on my list. It's nagging me.

Maria Zannini said...

Betty: That's fascinating! I've often heard animals can sense a change in the magnetic field of the earth. I wonder if something was going on underground.

I'm pretty observant with animals. I might not know what's setting them off, but I know when something's not normal.

Thanks for that bit of insight!

Maria Zannini said...

Stacy: It was hazier here than I would've liked but at least the moon was clear. I was hoping it'd be bigger, but the blood color was pretty cool.

Maria Zannini said...

Rebekah: None of my friends seemed to be having trouble with FB but when Greg mentioned it, it made me wonder if it was more localized.

It seems to be back today, so maybe it was just a glitch.

Maria Zannini said...

Angela: I've often heard things get squirrelly a couple of days before and after an eclipse. I hope things go back to normal soon.

Maria Zannini said...

Susan: Aw, I'm sorry you missed the eclipse. It was pretty awesome. The color of the moon was particularly spectacular.

Maria Zannini said...

Karen: Unsettling is the right word. It's like being off balance.

Things seem quite not so weird today, but not yet back to normal.

Maria Zannini said...

Sarah: I'm sorry you've been sick. It doesn't help that you're probably under a ton of pressure. It was a good call to take a hiatus from your blog. You need time to work on the priorities before it takes a toll of your health.

Maria Zannini said...

Barbara: Until everyone started mentioning it, it didn't occur to me to blame the eclipse. I've been through plenty of eclipses. Never had one affect me--or my animals so deeply.

Mike Keyton said...

I hope things are good with you soon, Maria. I suppose I should extend my good wishes to the goats and chickens, too. Ref moon, it was a glowing red penny over Monmouth. I know this because I had indigestion after a late chocolate cheesecake and wine and woke up with nothing else to do but look at the moon. At least there's now no pressure for 2032 ��

Maria Zannini said...

Mike: Thanks, Mike. Hope you remember not to mix wine with cheesecake again. It might be a while before there's another eclipse to keep you company. :)